Hello!

It's been a long time since I wrote...

To be honest, I haven't wanted to write.  I've been scared.

You see, I could share my heart as we struggled on the journey to parenthood...I knew that pain so well.  But what I was scared to admit is how hard being a parent is...

Hannah and Harper are a year old now!

Whew!

Being a parent is the hardest thing I have ever done. 

There, I said it.  I admitted it.  And now I feel, well, like crying...

It's so hard.  And I don't feel like I should say that because so many people, so many friends, are still waiting for their miracles...not a day goes by that I don't think about them and pray for them.

And I love being a mom!  I love it.  But it's hard! 

It's wonderful too.  It's so challenging.  It's so exciting and awe filled...

They turned one, we all survived!  We celebrated with two pink whale themed parties! 

We're on to Christmas which I have no idea how to do with two one year olds in the house...that would be the little sweeties that stand at the base of the Christmas tree screaming because they want the 10 ornaments that we've manged to find and hang up high...the soft lower ornaments are now strewn throughout the house!  The other ornaments are nestled somewhere in a box, ha!  I still have no idea if we'll get around to finding and hanging those...

But hey, the stockings are up!  And the house is a disaster and the laundry is piled up and the babies are sleeping!  Which is why I'm writing.  Instead of cleaning...

Well, I spoke too soon, I hear Hannah!  Better go for now!