A simple cup of coffee

Today my day is about a simple cup of coffee...

Well, let's be real...it's really about two babies...

And let's be real again...my every day is also about coffee!

Today, I'm trying to find the perfect morning cup...

I wish I were sitting on the deck in warmth and sunshine...I wish my cup was full of milk, peppermint mocha coffee creamer (which they now sell year round), and coffee...

That was my perfect cup yesterday...well, minus the deck scenario.  

But, I'm wondering if I need to give up the creamer...I'm wondering if it makes Harper spit up when nursing.

Nursing is hard.  But cleaning bottles is harder.  There are days, today being one of them, that I almost give up nursing...maybe both babies could just have a bottle.  Then I remember how hard it is to keep bottles clean.  And I ask myself, how would that make me feel?  Ok, sad.

But I'm in the throes of trying to figure out why all of a sudden Harper spits up more.  Is it something I'm eating?  Is it dairy?  It's emotionally draining...this is hard enough but now I have to give up the way I like my coffee?  What?!

Ugh!

So, today, I start my day trying to come up with the new perfect cup of coffee...good bye creamer, at least for now.  Even if this frustrates me, mucho...but I'll do it, or at least try...hello coffee with sugar, lots of sugar...

I made blueberry muffins to make the coffee search even more sweet!  I guess, because I like to celebrate things, I will celebrate finding a new sweet taste...

Because as long as we're being real...there is no way I can give up my morning coffee!  I'll just change how it tastes, for now.