Tears are falling.....

We've heard news of three different pregnancies in the past 6 weeks or so. Two of the pregnant are family members, one is a friend from seminary. Each time we heard this news the tears just started falling and wouldn't stop. It hurts so bad. Why can't it ALSO be us? Why can't we be mommy and daddy? I am writing this today because one of the bits of new life news was told to us last night. My mom called to say a cousin is pregnant so we would have time to process before it is announced to the entire family next week. I appreciate knowing beforehand. Maybe the tears will be all used up by the time we hear from the mom to be. By the time the family celebrates. By that time maybe, just maybe, we'll be able to celebrate with them without the floodgates of tears. I'll be the first to say that we harbor no bad feelings about these new lives being created. We are happy about new life. We are just sad that it can't be us celebrating new life that is part of us or that is chosen by us through adoption. We don't have answers and for today we will cry. We don't have hope today, but maybe tomorrow we will. Please Jesus give us hope, catch our tears, hold us through the pain.