Stepping...

The question often on our minds is what is the next step to take on our infertility journey. We keep thinking about the clinic in Billings and our dear friend back home telling us to not let a lot of time pass before we call that clinic. And that is what we want to do. We want to meet with someone who will understand and who can help us in some way. We do still think about adoption, and to be honest, we want a baby so badly that if adoption will make it happen sooner, we want that. But we can't give up the hope of being pregnant. And right now it feels the only way for that to happen is to talk with a fertility clinic. While adopting you are not allowed to seek fertility help. You actually have to write a letter stating when you stopped doing treatments or persuing help and how you overcame the sadness of that decision. But we simply aren't ready to give up trying. It doesn't seem fair that we can't be pregnant. We don't understand at all. Some days we hope, some days we talk about a plan, and some days we talk about what it will look like to not ever have kids. It's one of those things that we long for so deeply we can't imagine ever overcoming the sadness of it not happening. But time will tell. We'll keep praying and once we have the handy dandy paperwork from insurance in our hands giving us proof of covereage we will make a phone call to Billings. We don't know with our schedules if we will even be able to get an appointment scheduled but I'm gonna at least call to find out.