Back when....

Will we ever have a "back when..."? Will we ever say "back when we were walking the journey of infertility...."? To be able to say this means our painful journey is in the past...to be able to say this means we know the joy of parenthood, it means we dance not only in our pain, but in our celebration! Maybe that's one of the reasons we have this blog. We desire, we yearn to be able to say "back when" yet we don't want to forget how this journey has and is shaping our lives. You see, the moment we can say "back when" is the moment that we stop knowing the pain. We want the pain gone, vanished, a distant past. But we will not forget. Why will we not forget? Because we want to be able to share this with people walking a similar journey. We want to walk along side of them and share that we lived and breathed the heart wrenching pain. Do we wish for this journey so it can be part of our ministry? Absolutely not, this kind of pain is too hard, too deep, too heart achingly hurtful for us to wish this or want this. Because it is, we will walk, we will cry, we will go into the depths when we have to, but we will always pray that God can use this. That someday we can cry with others, hold others and share with them the only hope we have which is Jesus. Maybe someday we will have a sweet chocolate blue bunny ministry as we give and as we share our "back when..."