box o' hope

We have a box in our closet and it is filled with hope. It sits on the top shelf and we hardly ever get it out and we look inside even less. Sometimes we lift the top up just to put some more hope inside. Our box o' hope is filled with things...blankets, outfits, booties, stuffed animals, rattles, books...all for our future children. You see, as Joel helped me understand, this is a symbol or rather an act of our hope. We aren't the only ones who have put things in it either. Our children have a grandma who has put things in it and has never given up hope for us to be mommy and daddy. Our box filled to the top and almost over brimming with hope is not an act of pain or desire as we once thought of it...but it is a reminder to us that maybe, just maybe, someday we will have someone who is part Joel and part me, adopted or biological, to play, snuggle, dance, laugh, roll and tumble in the contents of our hope.