Monday, May 14, 2012

Mother's Day

Or as some people referred to it...Happy Mother's Day to-be.

I had a great day yesterday.

It was very surreal.  No other word comes to mind.  It was like I was living my life, yet I wondered if I really was.

It started with an early morning alarm.  That was the not so good part...and toast because that early, well, I just had to put something in me and NOTHING sounded good:(

Oh and trying to find something to wear that fits and was appropriate for a day starting out at 40 degrees and by the time the last church service ended being at a whopping 80 degrees!  That wasn't fun either, but Joel served as fashion adviser and we managed something!

I am going to skip over the church part and blog about that next...

So, after church Joel grilled steaks, did the dishes, made parmesan pasta, grilled asparagus, baked potato and strawberries (those were my contribution to the meal)!

As he was working on the grill portion I was sitting on the deck in the sunshine reading a book!  It was delightful.  But then it was made even more delightful when Joel showed up with a glass of lemonade with frozen blueberries and raspberries in it.  Amazing!

The meal was delicious!  

Next came presents...he gave me the new Pioneer Women cookbook...I love her show!  And a novel.  And today a waffle maker arrived in the mail to complete the surprise.

To top it all off he cleaned out both cars yesterday afternoon!

I feel blessed as I bask in the surrealness and joy of growing 2 babies!

Monday, May 7, 2012

Expanding our family by 4 feet...

This is the picture I'm about to post, when Joel gets home from visits, on facebook to announce that we are pregnant:


Can I share with you what I am thinking as I plan to do that?

I'm actually crying.  I'm reading tweets from my friends around the world still trying to find their way to the other side of that glass wall of infertility.  And I am longing for them to have the same news to share. 

As we share, I am so aware of the pain of infertility.  I am now forever on the other side, but I won't forget. 

Some people might consider that silly, and I think that some people in my shoes do forget.  But as I wait expectantly for my friend all way over in Jerusalem to have her egg transfer day, tears fall. 

I know what it was like.  I want all of their stories to end like ours.  I want infertility to have happy endings for everyone, around the world, near and far, struggling with it. 

So, our announcement will bring with it lots of joy.  But I won't post it without also saying something about our struggle.

My heart cries out to God, please, please, may miracles abound.

If you think about it would you mind saying a prayer for my friend in Jerusalem?  She's had a rough ride, but soon I hope she gets her miracle!

Predictions

The day we found out we were having twins the predictions were flying between the Luitens (Joel's sister's family) and us...

Ryan's prediction: Twin boys.

Elizabeth's prediction: Twin girls.

Joel's prediction: Boy and girl with the girl being born first.

My prediction: Twin girls.

It's fun to think about, imagine and wonder about!

We have to wait til sometime in July, and maybe not even then if babies don't cooperate, to find out which of us is correct!

In the meantime, I spend a lot of time guessing and dreaming up name combinations!

Do's and Don'ts

Today I am 8 weeks and 4 days pregnant with TWINS! 

I guess you already knew that!  I decided I wanted to record some do's and don'ts of this pregnancy so far...or rather some wants and want nots...

The do's:

Eat: strawberries, blueberries, raspberries...seriously sometimes these are the only things that sound good.  They are oh so delicious.  I liked these fruits before getting pregnant but now they are a necessity in my life!

All things Mexican food...on Friday we discovered a Mexican grill in Great Falls, it sort of reminded me of Baja Sol for you Midwesterners...it was so delicious that we ate lunch and dinner there.  Hey, when you feel like I feel, you gotta eat what sounds good!

Lemonade.  Joel is the lemonade drinker in our family, when we go out to eat he always orders it.  I almost always order water, or root beer on occasion.  But now I sit around and crave lemonade!  It's made even better by squirting some lime in and adding fresh strawberries!

Saltines.  A lot of them. Enough said.

Peppermint candies...these get me through the first church service on Sunday mornings.

String cheese, fruit snacks and yogurt with granola are some other mainstays in my diet these days.

Naps, or at least rest in the afternoon. 

Some of the don'ts:

Cereal...and I used to eat it every morning for breakfast...now I can't stand the thought of it.

Cooked carrots.

Onions.  Ok, I've never liked these.  But I had one in my mouth from a salad a few weeks ago, during lunch in a congregation members garage and well, I managed to swallow it, simply because I didn't want to be embarrassed by getting sick.

Kidney beans.  More on that in a later post.  But the short story, we had them on a salad at a bed and breakfast we stayed at in Bozeman last weekend...Joel was given most of mine...the poor guy, he couldn't even get them all down!

Sunday morning, before heading to Havre, we stopped by the Big Sandy church.  The bat urine smell is back...SO GROSS.  It was terrible.  I had to get outside fast.  I wasn't sure I was going to be able to sit through church there but it had aired out some and isn't as bad in the sanctuary.  And I kept peppermints in my mouth so I would smell them.  Gag.  There has to be a way to clean that smell, seriously.  


Wednesday, May 2, 2012

May 10

I received information in the mail today from Dr. Key's office.

He is our new doctor. 

They want me to fill out a release of records form and send it to Bozeman so they can send our records on.

I will do this.

But I don't do so well with change, especially when it comes to going from a doctor we love to one we don't know.

My reaction is...I don't want the Bozeman office to send away our records...I want them to keep them!

While at the eye doctor today the lady, Nancy, who was helping us pick out and purchase new glasses told us we would LOVE Dr. Key.

So, now I am slowly having a change of heart!  I'm excited to see what this new doctor is all about.

But most of all I am excited that he will show us our babies again and help us along the way...he will help us on this sometimes slow journey to meeting them in a few months:)! 

May 10th, exactly 9 weeks along, at 2:30pm we will do both...meet Dr. Key and see our babies again!  Yahoo!

A helping hand

Julia called me last week before we left for Bozeman.  She wanted to know if we had any of our stimulation meds left over and if so, could we bring them with us? 

Of course.

So, I went through the box and found that we only had 2 doses of menopur left and some mixed up but unused viles of gonal F and lueprolide.

We took the entire box with us.  I chuckle when I see Joel carrying it around!  He willingly does this!

She wanted the meds to help someone out.  A couple just starting IVF this cycle.  We will never know who they are.  But we will know that we helped them by donating some medication to them.

I hope and pray they receive their miracle also!

Monday, April 30, 2012

A plan

Our babies measured 7 weeks and 1 day.  In 2 weeks, at the 9 week mark, we will have another ultra sound to check on them.

Dr. Shomento is lining this up for us in Great Falls.  She wants to us to go to a perinatologist...a specialist for multiples and IVF pregnancies.

It's a relief that we don't have to make decisions like who to see on our own.

I'm waiting today to hear from the new doctor's office to schedule the ultra sound.  Yet another thing to be excited about and nervous...ultra sound number 2.

Dr. Shomento said that at 20 or 22 weeks we will have a high tech very detailed ultra sound, something that seemed the same, but also sort of different than normal, since we are an IVF pregnancy with twins.

In the midst of thinking about another doctor and doctor's office I have high hopes for friendly and caring people.  And I have comfort knowing that Dr. Shomento and Julia are only a phone call away.

On a side note...I've been having some pain in my uterus area off and on, ever since retrieval back in March...

I'll admit it had me worried at times.  But guess what we also saw in the ultra sound Friday?

My left ovary is still giant...it is shooting out hormones like crazy at this point...it is the one that during retrieval was poked and prodded the most because it was most full of eggs...

No running for me yet.  It's nothing to be worried about, it's just doing it's thing after a cycle of stimulation.  But Dr. Shomento did say that if the other clinic says I have ovarian cancer when they see it to tell them that I DO NOT.  Just call Dr. Shomento.