A daring endeavor

Yesterday was treatment number 4 for us. Mayo is so very different on a weekday. There were people everywhere, Mayo staff, doctors, nurses, patients…everywhere. We saw a line of people very long waiting to check in for their appointment. We did not have to wait.

In between appointments we wandered, inside and out.

We stopped to look at the first daffodil sighting of the season, for us anyways.

We stopped to admire the play, dance and imagine sculptures in one of the hallways. They were beautiful and inspiring. Oh if we could have kids to play, dance and imagine with.

We sat on a bench outside in the sunshine and we read the bible and prayed together. We marveled at the beauty of the day, it was sort of like our wedding day, almost 5 years ago (on Friday).

We checked out the Barnes and Noble across the street because a nice lady recommended it. It was once a theater, now a Barnes and Noble. It was cool.

We saw the same couple we’ve seen the last 2 times. Pure sadness. We still didn’t talk to them. We did learn one of their names, but only by overhearing it. We didn’t even make eye contact. It’s awkward.

We had a little trepidation going into this appointment because we knew we needed to talk to them about our busy May and pending move to Montana in June. We didn’t know what this would mean. I was all set to ask, nervous, but ready to ask. But I didn’t have to! The first thing the nurse said was that if this round did not work the doctor would like us to see her again so we could schedule the appointment before we left! Of course we don’t like to think about it not working…but that’s part of the journey. They are always planning ahead for us at desk 3-A.
The numbers were off the charts good! Like 14 times what they want them to be. That’s good! That’s all I’ll say about that. And I asked about my follicles because on the lab line Friday they did not say how many there were. First the nurse did the insemination, then she pulled up my follicle chart on the computer and she counted…1…2…3…4. Then she turned with a smile and said “you have a lot to work with here, I counted 4”! She went on to say, also with a smile, that we are daring to do this with that many follicles! Oh, but of course we are Actually, we didn’t even know how many follicles there were until the procedure was done! And at that point all we can do is pray that it works, pray that life is created, as we type, as we walk, think, talk, nap, wait. Nurse Nancy was nice and supportive, like they always are there. This was our first time meeting her. They may plan ahead but they always hope for the best and they hope the appointment we have scheduled (for if this doesn’t work) is canceled. So do we, so do we.