I lost count of the number of home pregnancy test I've used over the years of this journey.
Every time they were negative. All 5 IUI's they were negative.
I began to be scared of them. I lost all trust in them. I called them bad names. I shed lots of tears over them.
Always negative.
Guess what? I still haven't done one this time, even though I know it would be a beautiful positive!
Julia and Dr. Shomento said I could cheat with one. I have one in the drawer.
But, I'll take the big fat very positive blood test news that we received last Thursday over a home test...any day.
I know it sounds weird...I know it's beyond silly.
I know I could take one now to have that memory.
But I am not going to. Why? My joy is complete.
Our miracle is growing.
We are the Skindlovs married for 12 years. We are on a journey together that we want to share parts of....our journey is life giving, sorrow filled, play filled and defining. Our hearts broke as we walked through years of infertility, our hearts rejoice at the birth of Hannah Grace & Harper Joy in Nov. 2012, our IVF miracles & in June 2015 our FET miracle Hadley Hope! Being parents seemed unreachable, but thanks be to God He allowed us a front row seat to watch our miracle unfold!
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