Trust...

We received this scripture reminder this week via email from a dear family member:

Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Do not depend on your own understanding. Seek His will in all you do, and He will direct your paths.

This is probably our biggest challenge, the most giant of mountains we have to climb. Lean not on our own understanding. We might not understand this journey at all, but we sure do find is easy to lean on our own plans. After 3 and a half years it's harder than ever to rely on God's plan simply because we don't know what it is. We don't know how to know what it is. And if it's about patience we're about done with that one. Isn't 3 and a half years enough? We think so. We hope so. But then we remember that it's not about our plan, it's about his, the creator of life. And we get more frustrated and more scared. It's easy to trust our plan. In trusting our plan this procedure will work. We think this Mayo stuff is God's plan, but I guess time will tell. We see, read and hear over and over again how God give us the desires of our hearts and we feel pretty forgotten.

We know he's there, yet we don't all the time believe it. We feel like he's with us, yet we don't always trust that he is listening. We hope, we seek, and we beg that he will give us something that in this moment seems unreachable and darn near impossible.